Patiently

I waited patiently for the LORD; He turned to me and heard my cry. –Psalm 40:1

I find myself seeking His answers for my life. I seek to understand why I exist in this place and in this time. What is my purpose? Why is it that I struggle to find that sweet spot in my life? I know that place exists and I know that He desires that I fully place myself within that spot.

As I struggle to obtain answers, I also find myself with a trapped feeling that I will never come to the full realization of what I am to do in His name until it is too late. I know that this is the time when I must take action and take a risk for my faith in my Savior.

I am very attracted at this point in my life to those writers who have a deep insight into their personal sweet spot. I find a deep sense of satisfaction that they have found their way and are executing their plan for their life while journeying the direction of the path that has been laid before them. They have taken that risk and are being rewarded. I know that the idea of taking a risk also has the connotation of possibly failing but it is far better to have risked something and failed then to have never taken a risk and be enslaved by the mediocrity of what this world deems as safety and security. I have been in that place of safety and security for too long and I know that it sucks the very marrow out of your existence.

I know that my step of faith will be rewarded. I know that all is required is to take that first step and do so in His name. As I embark upon that journey, I must do so boldly and not in fear. I must be prepared for any eventuality that will result. My journey is my faith and by not taking that step, I am declaring a weakness in my faith in what He desires for my life. LORD, please just help me to figure this out.